I FEEL SAD.........................................

I duno y>>>>>>>>>>>>every time after i drank alconhol and then i will think much.......of my ...................

then i will cry.............and cry till i felt tired then fell asleep.................at this moment.......i feel so unhapi but no one can talk with me......lots lots................may be coz when they r drinking ...got a couple got some augre..........thay started to fight...............so we stopped them........and wanna talk with them ............to disscue what da problem..............but they still..............and i started to cry in front of them coz recently my healthy is not very well............hv to go to hospital usually..........and i start to think.................if i die.....what it will be....sth like that................sometime i think i dun hv to stay here....................dun wanna takj abt this....................so..........gd nite